六月假期

It's been more than a month since I last updated my blog. Not that I purposely didn't update it, I just didn't have ample time to do so. The previous month was full of mixed feelings as I was rather busy settling many stuff, coping with the increased number of tests and balancing my commitment in the two CCAs I have, albeit one not officially started yet. There was one day I toured the entire Bukit Batok neighbourhood to settle forms for my 2nd CCA which I mysteriously took up without telling anyone. (Ok, only one, even my parents do not know at first. So that particular guy is "honoured" to know first and be trusted to keep mum, i.e. being a close enough friend to be trusted. XD) Communicated with many outside people for once, usually I don't do so. Ting Yit asked me to improve in talking in front of many people, get rid of that "low self esteem", have higher self confidence and finally build rapport with the other CIs. Quitting the first CCA, which was my last alternative choice since all others fell flat on me, after Dance Nite 2010 (must put the year if not people think I all talk and no action =.=). I find it too boring and demanding with low returns and recognition. Actually, this is just an excuse to quit it. Firstly I do not have enough time to juggle 2 CCAs and Chemistry Olympiad training. Secondly, with my growing disinterest in it, the successful enlistment into the course of the 2nd CCA was a good turn in my life. After all, I wanted to be in it in the very first place and I finally achieved my aim, a break from my recurrent failures in the previous endeavours before it.

Albeit my holidays on the verge of being burnt completely, the looming of the risk of getting "U"s for all subjects in block tests (maybe except chemistry) and the ultra high chance of not getting assigned back to the unit where I came from, I will do my best. Time is short, and I must make full use of the limited time available. Problem is whether I will. Never mind. I MUST. I need encouragement from others in this period though, although I admit I've not been a good friend for some people as I've been busy... This trend will continue, sadly, until the end of my course and block tests. Will try making up then. =)