No emotion can describe this void full of emotions

Getting closer than close is really a great feat. That's probably why couples bicker ever so often, but this is also probably a false analogy...

Process:
Strangers meet --> Common topic --> Acquaintances -->  Shared common experiences (both bad and good) --> Friends --> Common beliefs / characters --> Buddies -->  Accept and appreciate differences --> Brothers

The last stage is the most difficult to achieve. Even once it's reached, more and more will be revealed, with challenges of differences in time and space thrown in. Individual stages are reversible.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Indeed. Applies for relationship hiccups and overhauls.

Currently going through a change. Suggested and initiated by my upper sec friend. Character change for highly introvert to an extrovert. Not easy. Having unstable intermediates and transition states. Still leaning towards the introvert though. Situations where I tend towards an extrovert character have uncomfortable encounters (尴尬、 冷场) where I do not really know how to reply. Hope to reach the other end pretty soon. The intermediates and transition states can incur rather high opportunity costs, explained actions and words. Like yesterday. Blehhh, it sucks to the core. Still guilt-stricken.

As life goes on and social well being alters,

If someone takes you for granted:
+: You're so integrated into his life that you're essentially a part of him and his daily routine.
-: Your views will be undermined. Your feelings will not be cared for as much.

Ideal situation: Perfectly Reciprocal Relationship


Doesn't exist, but no harm working towards it with friends. =)

Finding purpose

Process has been well. 

Just that I'm still not producing on the PPC...

Realised I can use the Principle of Comparative Advantage  to increase my overall welfare. o.0 

Trade specialties. Oh yes, in academics. It's an appealing option that's open. So why not?

Need to increase my productive efficiency. To be more competitive. To be able to reap economies of scale. Wait a minute... from where? Never mind the source, I just need to be able to complete things with precision and accuracy.

And the process continues... It will never end. The bar will ever be set higher (by myself), but I do know the limits and the checkpoints (by comparing with others). 

Two points I want to record down here. They have no link whatsoever.

1) I realise I get annoyed when people assume I did nothing when I did (and devoted more in time and effort) just because they did not see me do anything. Anybody will actually.

2) The closer a friend (or brother), the more support one receives. The better one becomes in deflecting any shit that life throws your way too. Good for tiding through hard times in school. I understand what's moral support now. Didn't in the past. BOO... (N)