It feels good to be back to normal. To think the formula is just be myself. Acting isn't my forte. Brings forth uncertainty. I agree. Haven't brought out much good by trying to be some one that isn't me. And of course others surely find out. Didn't know what I had to do previously, so conformed to the norm. I followed what the picture in my head was, gathered over the years. A Gargantuan mistake. Definitely.
I was thoroughly relieved after the open-up talk. I was waiting for it. And even though it wasn't nice at all, far from nice, I appreciated it. At least I know my strengths now. In the past, I only know my looming number of weaknesses, but never could put together words to describe my strengths. For the first time, I had people voicing out my strengths and explaining how I could use them. The recipe is just to be myself. It's that simple. I couldn't really believe it. To blend in and complement, I just need to be natural. Sounds too easy, but makes sense. One can only succeed if he is himself. Trying to be different from yourself will inevitably fall flat on your face. Though I can't guarantee that I'll definitely fit into the existing styles, there's a high chance I can. I will try hard. To do my best to be myself and contribute. =)
Saturday, October 30
Friday, October 15
Role of friends
Didn't think of posting another blog post.
However, felt strongly for some article I read,
Especially a quote:
"A good friend is like a computer. I Enter in your life, Save you in my heart, Format your problems, Shift you to opportunities and never Delete you from my memory."
From
Mr Masagos Zulkifli
Senior Parliamentary Secretary
Ministry of Education
Chairman
Health Youth Committee (HY-Com)
Message delivered on World Mental Health Day, 10th October 2010
Last accessed 15th October 2010
That's to all my friends. =)
However, felt strongly for some article I read,
Especially a quote:
"A good friend is like a computer. I Enter in your life, Save you in my heart, Format your problems, Shift you to opportunities and never Delete you from my memory."
From
Mr Masagos Zulkifli
Senior Parliamentary Secretary
Ministry of Education
Chairman
Health Youth Committee (HY-Com)
Message delivered on World Mental Health Day, 10th October 2010
Last accessed 15th October 2010
That's to all my friends. =)
Random
This post will be quite random. Haven't got anything specific to write. The promotional exams are so enticing, I'm so going to flunk it. But I should be able to get promoted without any major problems, I guess. I wonder why maths has been the hard paper for two years running, both Additional Maths last year and H2 Maths this year were extremely mind-boggling. A challenge to the intellect and time management, which I failed to do so this year, sadly. My time management for maths this year was horrible, I could do all the questions and get an A if I didn't try to get myself straddled with some small parts of questions that are very difficult and serve to burn time. Funny I knew they were there to trick people into spending much time on them and I still fell into the trap. 真是明知山有虎，偏向虎山行。And got myself owned big time. =(
After promos, it was time to relax. Have widened the social circle of DotA to include the class of 6G. (Previously it was only one friend, limited to afternoon games only. My class does not play computer games.) It's good because I have no need to play against boring and inflexible AI anymore. It's bad as time will be diverted to socialize and play DotA upon request, which I initiate or which I accept. Game cannot be stopped unlike in AI where you can put the game on hold and reply to MSN instant messages. The reason why I do not reply to friends' messages nowadays. =/ Have no idea of the reason why I feel so empty after promos. Have nothing to accomplish of substance to give fulfillment, I guess. Have to find one, cannot go on like this. Perhaps can go gym to train up. Was inspired by the unofficial volleyball match between two "teams". Something came out of FOS after all. It wasn't full of shit as suggested. Their strength and agility are amazing. All-rounder in strength, agility and intelligence will be great. Even now I am talking in DotA terms. Oh well. Applies to real life too, no harm done. Will carry it out in the long holidays. Have to, my physical fitness is just not good. Will force myself to read up on GP topics too, though most of them do not appeal to me at all. Lost interest in reading after Sec 2. Haiz. Stepped into a library in 2 years with a friend. No books appeal to me though, which is expected. Haven't borrowed a book in 3 years and still counting. Zzz. Life sounds miserable. The talk with another friend, who is very logical, has no shame in mugging and having no life, makes me consider about a relationship with a special, somewhat coincidental friend. Should be satisfied with the level of relation already. Others' opinions indeed do give insight. 当局者迷，旁观者亲嘛。Shall end abruptly here. =)
After promos, it was time to relax. Have widened the social circle of DotA to include the class of 6G. (Previously it was only one friend, limited to afternoon games only. My class does not play computer games.) It's good because I have no need to play against boring and inflexible AI anymore. It's bad as time will be diverted to socialize and play DotA upon request, which I initiate or which I accept. Game cannot be stopped unlike in AI where you can put the game on hold and reply to MSN instant messages. The reason why I do not reply to friends' messages nowadays. =/ Have no idea of the reason why I feel so empty after promos. Have nothing to accomplish of substance to give fulfillment, I guess. Have to find one, cannot go on like this. Perhaps can go gym to train up. Was inspired by the unofficial volleyball match between two "teams". Something came out of FOS after all. It wasn't full of shit as suggested. Their strength and agility are amazing. All-rounder in strength, agility and intelligence will be great. Even now I am talking in DotA terms. Oh well. Applies to real life too, no harm done. Will carry it out in the long holidays. Have to, my physical fitness is just not good. Will force myself to read up on GP topics too, though most of them do not appeal to me at all. Lost interest in reading after Sec 2. Haiz. Stepped into a library in 2 years with a friend. No books appeal to me though, which is expected. Haven't borrowed a book in 3 years and still counting. Zzz. Life sounds miserable. The talk with another friend, who is very logical, has no shame in mugging and having no life, makes me consider about a relationship with a special, somewhat coincidental friend. Should be satisfied with the level of relation already. Others' opinions indeed do give insight. 当局者迷，旁观者亲嘛。Shall end abruptly here. =)
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