MMXI

New Year's Resolution: 2011 another year, and the last year before the world ends... ._."

5th of Jan, 4-5 days late in posting...

Unit Chalet was fun and a success. First time so many official documents were created, that there was so much planning and attention to detail. A first for planned unit and squad activity. At least as far the archives didn't have much... Grand achievement and "revolution" for the OT. Good job. I surely enjoyed myself, though not with the group I was supposed to be with (by convention).

J2. No time to think much already. Can't let my mind wonder about relations, people like in the recent past and take away my attention from where it rightfully belongs: academics. I'll probably often feel what I'm experiencing right now. A tad bit tired. Not feeling like doing anything and wondering. "What's my purpose in what I'm doing... What's my aim in life?" Just keep moving and doing what I should. Emotions are powerful tools, but I can't overwhelm myself with it anymore. Enough of it already.

Very interesting how humans work, how the mind and heart works in synchrony. Can predict how some people will react to situations accurately. Many occasions proved the point (to myself). Nice achievement for me, was that a goal last year? Never mind, too lazy to review my posts. My goal this year compared to the previous years' is utterly different. All in all, this skill's still very handy for me.

Social life, the emphasis of last year... can't really say it totally failed or succeeded. Macro, class - fail; CCA - success? Micro, bf - fail; brother - success? Funny, those planned goals failed, the improvised ones faired relatively better.

There's no need to specially go out and try to manipulate relations. Comes naturally with all the other aspects of life. Put in effort, people can feel. Constant effort is enough. No need go out of the way. Go out of the way is unnatural and will most probably not succeed anyway.

NYR: 看开 Seems, simple, but it won't be easy, that's for sure.

The start

Reality.

Seen a glimpse of the society today.

Just a small window.

But it's the first ever time I'm exposed fully.

No more being a kid in thoughts.

Complete responsibility and accountability felt.

Being a sandwich is horrid to the max.

Proposition - Opposition

Superiors - Subordinates

Oh, the divine balance.

I'm still mostly for the people.

Learning's a lifelong process indeed.

I hope there're willing people who will let me take refuge now and then.

New Outlook on Life

The inhumane lies have been exposed. 

The many covers of reassurance of oneself broke down.

A year of deceit shrouded in fog has gone.

What happens next?

Stay true and move on.

It's that simple.

Living in the unalterable past is futile.

The future is still there to craft.

Relations need not be put in words.

Mutual interactions strengthen bonds undoubtedly.

Time spent together cannot be measured with gold.

But, is it too much to ask for confirmation?

Loneliness is the reason.

Wise is my friend to pick it out.

Concern and help are kindly offered.

After all, he has walked the same road before.

Close friends all spread around.

None know another well.

No siblings to call my own.

Only the cold laptop accompanies me every day and night.

Be more E than I, was the advice.

Right, I thought.

Can't keep on wondering about achievements in social life.

I'll help myself, I'll change.

Support from friends is required.

I literally lust after it.

Best Friend, Confidante? Even a Life Partner.

Fate will bestow them naturally.

Without the lies, I will not have a dear brother.

It must be predestined.

A gargantuan blessing it has always been in disguise.

For experience, for accompaniment, for life.