2014

Well, I guess I'm going to be 21 this year, an important "checkpoint" age, the age which humans cross the boundary of the categories of children and adults. I do not have many feelings towards its approaching, except maybe not really looking forward to the greater amount of responsibilities that comes with adulthood.

Looking back at 2013, it's been a decent year for me, with no major events, excluding perhaps reaching my ORD. The increase in the number of facebook friends is probably the smallest since the year I started my account. I have also done more clean-up on my list of friends, the last which I will act upon for what I foresee as many years to come. I officially got over the stage of mass adding people I meet (when meet = add). And nope, this does not mean I think I have an adequate social circle. Heck, I don't even know what's the diameter of my ideal social circle. Going by intuition will do for that, I just hope I don't become paranoid or the like. I still feel lonely sometimes at home (from my lack of siblings), but I am proud to say I can manage myself when I'm alone. I said before I wanted to go out with friends and acquaintances more often. It's not really possible for me, as I found out this year. Due to my introvert personality coupled with my dry skin, I am not comfortable with going out as frequent as I would have liked. Oh well, I've come to terms with it.

2014 will be the year when I go back to school. Yay! Will encounter the opposite gender of my age range rather often again after 2 years of national service. Hopefully interaction with the girls won't be difficult for me... And I will adopt a modified strategy of attempting to make new friends: be active in expressing interest but not force it too hard. After all, I have learnt that people may not want to due to their various reasons. I still like to widen my circle (ok maybe not as others fade out unknowingly), there's a lot of good people out there which I have yet to meet. =)

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Been void of emotions for quite some time, just living life as it is. It's becoming a little boring. Alright, I admit, it's downright boring. Shall share one interesting point which I found online. 

1) The things that we do often in the past when we're younger have not become lamer with time. They're still the same now and will be so even in the future. What's changed and is changing is ourselves, our own mindsets.

Explains a lot.

20 years + 1 day

Update in what I've been doing:

Writing this post with a groggy mind. Have been trying to pen this post the past few days, but put it off due to "exhaustion". Cause is playing too much DotA2 I guess, my new entertainment source, it lagging in almost every game notwithstanding. Shall replace my laptop at the end of this year, I think. Wanted it to be a connection platform with friends as well, not working very smoothly though. Reasons: 1) I haven't played pub yet even though I've played against bots for quite a long time already (inclusive of the original DotA game). 2) Not all friends or acquaintances play that game. The second reason is not a reason if one stares hard enough. Thus, I've been reading up and practicing (in coop bot games) in order to have an enjoyable virgin pub game experience. Then I'll play together with my friends (who of course play pub) and hopefully bond closer.

Thoughts:

Before I started my DotA2 craze, I had been watching Japanese anime back from my childhood times. From  the increased number of unpleasant experiences I witnessed or was part of since I left school, I was wondering why people can be so mean. After watching the first 2 seasons of Digimon, I uncovered the message which I have not received from the anime. (I didn't manage to catch every episode on TV when I was young.) There exists a balance of light and darkness. Good and evil are always present, in harmony. To expect a world full of light and goodness is akin to wishing for Utopia. I guess I just have to constantly improve myself in the light to fight against the darkness in myself and in my surroundings. As cliche as this may sound, good will triumph over evil, and I firmly believe in it. Another key take from the anime: to actively strive for the things I want in life. They'll not magically fall from the heavens, work is needed to achieve them. Life's too short to wait for things to happen, it's better to make things happen. =)